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It's good to be back...! [27 Jun 2006|01:15am]
[ mood | relaxed ]

WOW!! So I dont remember the last time I wrote in this thing! What I do know is that wow alot has definitely gone on since I wrote here. I was pretty bored tonight on the computer but I was thinking about livejournal for some reason so I decided to leave an entry.

Now where to begin:

Well I have been done with highschool since the middle of May and I graduated in June, which was such a relief. High school was most def a blast and I learned some of the most difficult lessons and life skills but with a few good friends I got through it! I was able to learn so much about myself that I didnt even know existed in me..like my music for example I really have grown as a vocalist and I have definitely learned so much about music as well.

In the fall I will be attending a small to medium size university where I will be studying to become a Music Therapist!! I am so excited and I cant wait!! I just had my audition the other day which was the most nerve racking audition that I had ever attended, but I guess Music is where I should definitely be because I got the audition!! The faculty said,"We welcome you with open arms! We cant wait to see you in the fall!!" I was so relieved!! It was the best feeling in the world! So after my audition my Grandma whom had come for support took me along with my sister, mom and my fabulous piano player kara to the KOP Mall where we shopped for hours!! I was just such an amzing and day and I couldnt have asked for more!

I guess now I'll write about how my summer is going so far.. Well let's just say there's nothing to really document thats exciting but I do go to the beach like almost everyday except this weather has been just awful but I did go today even though it was overcast. It was quite relaxing though the sun kept going in and out but my sister and I always go prepared to the beach lol so we had out sweatshirts and our sweatpants. We basically slept for 3 hours and then we went to this authentic and fresh mexican restaraunt which is right next to our beach. it was just so relaxing and such a great afternoon!

Now that it's summer I work all the time and that's exactly what I did tonight, I worked. I love work though it's so much fun, I scoop icecream how hard could that be? Easy, it's a piece of cake!

I guess the next thing to mention would be the most popular girl topic....BOYS! Well in a nutshell I dont have one and there is no special one right now. Although my little sister is finally growing up and she definitely is my best friend and I'm just so happy for her and her boyfriend, his name is Colton and they are just the cutest couple ever! It does make me upset though sometimes because when I am with the two of them it brings back to my first real boyfriend days and I just know how bad things went for us that I hope Colton will not make the same mistakes as my ex did and if he does I feel afraid for him because Micaela is such a strong person and she wont let anyone hurt or disrespect her in anyway! On a happier note though I know college is going to bring a world of oppurtunity and I know it will help me to let go of old heartbreaks and friendships that went sour and it will help me grow into a strong and courageous young lady!!

I am more then beyond thrilled for college to start and I hope it opens a whole new pathway to my life! I hope it is filled with a wonderful life lasting relationship with a man who is caring respectful of me and my values and morals and someone who is going to love for me and not want me to be anything I dont want to be. I hope he will be forever faithful, loyal and most important honest! I hope I make a few best friends who I will be able to be close with beyond my college years. I hope that my music will help the lives of those who are hurt and in need of healing! Then last but not least I hope to give birth to beautiful, and healthy children someday!!

Well these are my dreams, goals and my new life I want to pursue! I hope college is everything and more that I have hoped for!!

Till next time...

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What's he trying to say?? [22 Jun 2005|10:05pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

ok so yea monday nite....

Monday nite i hungout with my ex should i say my ex husband! now everything was going well till my parents got involved....they wonder why i want to go far...far....far way to college!!

anyways we hungout....hooked up blah blah had fun! everything was perfect at the boardwalk.. it was like we just picked up where we ended. but then my stupid dad had to open his fucking mouth! and it made rich so angry what he said and then as i was saying goodbye...he hugged me and kissed me and told me to hangin there and told me he loved me!

then i never heard from him that nite or the next day....

wtf is he trying to say!

where do i draw the line honestly??
when do i let go for real?
what do i have to say or do??

completely hopeless...


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SUMMER! [19 Jun 2005|12:57am]
Wow! i havent posted inforever......

So yay! it's summer finally!! im so happy it is here!

Today i worked from 1-6 at the icecream parlor and i made $25.00 today so yay now i have money!! Tonight i went to jordans and we had a lot of fun...we got slurpees, drove around to the beach in IH and walked on the IH boardwalk it was a blast! as always though great nites have to come to an end! I was so mad too bc my mom wouldnt let me sleep there so everything we were planning on doing got shot to hell!!

So tomorrow is father's day and everything is still in my car not even ready to receive lol!!

well im tired and it's time for bed!


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Spanish Class [01 Jun 2005|11:45am]
[ mood | drained ]

yay!!! we are in espanol and marie, connie, and angela say hi!! hope u all had a nice weekend!! i did lol!!

My house party saturday nite was super crazy!!! i cant wait till this sat!!

So yea the SATS are soon approaching on saturday i hope i do really well! my goal is to get a 1400 to a 1600!!! So i dunt know i'll see how i do!!

well lunch is approaching talk to u all later!!


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PROM cont.... [08 May 2005|12:53am]
[ mood | depressed ]

Ok so prom was alot of fun! I felt like a princess the whole nite! it sucked though because my date was fucking horrible!! I hope next year at least i'll be able to go with someone who at least would fucking dance with me! But on a happier note i got nominated for PROM queen!! so that was exciting!!

then after prom we went to Ally's after prom party and that was alot of fun! then we went home the girls came to my house and the boys went to collins!!

then the next day kevin and i dropped my loser prom date at the train station, wow that day was hilarious! i never laughed so much in my entire life!

but now to go on to emotional hidden feelings! I am sick to death of being alone and to top it off i just only want to be with rich just for some reason i cant open myself up to a new guy and i just wish he would come and get me and things would be normal again! we have recently been talking alot since prom ended and rich really likes me he says and hes telling me he loves me and im sick of waiting and i wish something would happen already! I can't stand though how hell call and talk like 5 days in a row and then all of sudden it just ends it's like i feel im only there for comfort perhaps or when he really misses me hardcore??? i don't know i never understand the games guys play and then signals they send and why there are so fucking confusing and cruel sometimes!!! i just hope this summer will be as memorable and awesome as last summer!! I miss him so fucking much its not fair! Oh and i hope this brittany chick dies!!

in other news i got a summer job! this summer i'll be a junior camp counselour! it shall be quite the experience i think!! i mean c'mon who doesnt love kids?? lol, but the money is def awesome!!

so thats what i have been up too and yea feel free to post!!

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PROM! [30 Apr 2005|07:49pm]
Tommorrow is PROM!! I cant wait!! yea and i havent posted in forever!! how is everyone?? Well i cant wait till tomorrow!~! it's gunna be so fun!! I am so happy Patrick is coming!!! yay!!
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The Story of my life..... [21 Jan 2005|05:52pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

Yea so everything has gone so fucking wrong!

I am totally convinced I'll never get to be back in Rich's arms or be his only one ever again! I wish I never ended it that night and I wished he never agreed!!

My stupid parents fucked the plans for today and I was suppost to hang with him again but now i'll never know, I'll never know if we will ever have a chance!!

I love this boy to death and I wish he'd want me back n I could have him back!!My life is so mierable without him!! I know we are meant to be too!! I love him so much and I know if he loves me then our love will conqueor anything!!

I cant wait for that day when we will be together for eternity....because you love me and I love you!!!

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This WEEKS: MOTIVATION!! [18 Jan 2005|05:56pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

So yesterday I was at this fancy salon in PA and I came across this magazine article for Horoscopes after I had my massage!

It was amazing id just like to say!!

Anyways so I ripped it out and here is what it says.....


If you want to feel fulfilled, you are going to have to make lifestyle changes that reflect who you really are. This may mean sacrificing the things that once made you feel secure, like a comfortable job or relationship. Let them go and move on- it's time to live a life that you really love........


So I guess this is what I have to at least try to do...

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I hate you and Then I love you.............!!! [18 Jan 2005|05:22pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Ok yea so thats what I decided for my life!!
I love him but then I hate him.....

Love is stupid I thing and it's a game that can just kill a person, a person meaning me....

I guess i am just gonna play this game out!!

I know how I feel and I know my feelings now only the future can tell I am done and this time I mean it!!

So i guess Friday is my fate.....

There's no turning back now!!


EXAMS blow!! I hate them I can't wait 1 left!!

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Happy New Year!! [31 Dec 2004|09:51pm]
[ mood | grateful ]

HEy ya'll lol I am in Florida right now and it's a tad bit chilly!!

Happy NEw YEar to all of you!! I love you all!! see yas in January!!

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I miss you...... [29 Dec 2004|04:04pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

Everything that has gone on in this past month of my life has just been heart shattering.......

I don't understand why we cant be together anymore??

I know that all the same feelings are there and I know he still cares about me because he told me so....

I cant just casually hook up with anyone anymore it's just too painful. It's suppost to make me feel better and I know it has made him but I can't hurt myself like that anymore!!

I am so lost without YOU!!

I mean I have been short tempered I have been feeling sickly alot, I never want to eat anymore and I am always fake about how I really feel!

I wish I was just happy again!!!

Sometimes I just want to throw my whole life away because my life sucks now and it's not worth all the pain I feel now!

I love him and I always will!!

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AHH FREEDOM!! [19 Dec 2004|04:29pm]
[ mood | scared ]

Yeah ok so I just got home and on the way home I stopped for gas!

OMG this paki guy started hitting on me and he asked me if i was married or had a bf! THen I told him my name and said yea i have a bf and my dad is a marine!!

It was the scariest experience ever bc he gripped my window so i locked all the doors and then shut the window and he kept tapping on my glass so i had to open it to pay and i pretty much threw the 10$ and started the car and accelerated as fast as i could of out of there!!

Yea it was scary!

Ok so things were crazy this weekend! What the hell went on?? I think rich and i are going to get back together in a couple weeks or so....

I mean this weekend we really learned alot about how we feel about eachother and how wat i did affected him so.....

I just hope everything will go my way for once!!

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I got it!! [17 Dec 2004|06:01pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Yay! So my bday was tueday and I passed!! I got my license and I even passed Parallel parking on the 1st try!

Yea so my bday was awesome! I also had all my friends over on the sunday the 12th that was a fun night!

Yea so I am enjoying it all and taking it in slowly!

This weekend Jordan's Christmas Party and christmas shopping all day tomorrow!

Have a great weekend everyone!

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[13 Dec 2004|10:53pm]
[ mood | hyper ]

YAY!! It's finally here!! My BIRTHDAY tomorrrow!! DECEMBER 14th!!!

I am going for my license tomorrow morning!! YAY!!

This is going to be the best weekend ever!!!

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I'll Love You Forever....... [08 Dec 2004|05:19pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

I wish I never said a word
I should have kept my feelings and mouth shut

Now its all over....

The weekends spent together
The movies watched together
The little kisses on the forehead
The giant hugs
The freshly cut roses given
No more hairties to steal
No more midnight talks
No more fun
No more inlove with one another
No anything rich and breana.........

I love him so much and I'd give anything to get him and it all back!!


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Parents suck!! [06 Dec 2004|10:03pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I dont understand why my parents always have to gang up on me??

They are driving me through a friggin wall!! I can't take them!!

To top it off they are ruining all my dreams and my birthday which is 8 days a way and I believe they could care less!!

I just dont know why they hate me so much?????

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HALLOWEEN PARTY 2004 PICTURES [01 Dec 2004|04:37pm]
[ mood | sick ]


hey guys go here to check out the pics from Kate B.'s party!!

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HAPPY 1 Year Anniversary!!!..............Eww Food Poisoning!! [01 Dec 2004|04:01pm]
[ mood | nauseated ]

Ok yay! so yesterday Nov. 30th was rich and I's 1 Year anniversary!!!
Wow how far we have come I love him so much!! Though we didnt get to celebrate it we still talked so that was good and made me happy!!

On the other hand I got food poisoning on monday night at about 2am! I just woke up out of my sleep and puked. So I stayed home and tuesday and just hung out all day and I ate soup and crackers!!

So friday I am suppost to go on the Emmanuel Retreat, but now i dun't know if i am going because my mom said the checks did not go through so yea there's always a problem lol! Oh yea also on Friday my mom is going to be on CNN the show is called LIVE FROM.... so watch it! It's suppost to air at 2:45 so watch!!

In other news of my life I got MAROON 5 and the GARDEN STATE Soundtrack!! They are awesome cds!!



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baby! oops i killed us! [26 Nov 2004|10:01am]
[ mood | cold ]

What stupid celebrity are you destined to kill? by daydreamer8852
You killed
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HAPPY THANKSGIVING!! [24 Nov 2004|09:59pm]
[ mood | lazy ]

YAY!! THANKSGIVING BREAK is finally here!!

Things I am looking forward too....

*Thanksgiving Day!! YUM EAT!! EAT!!
*Friday seeing Richie
*Friday Micaela's Sweet 16 Birthday Party
*Saturday most likely spending the day with richie
*Sunday being forced to sing at Shop Rite

So I hope this is a great break!!

I hope you all have a great holiday and vacation!

Buon Festa Dell Ringrazieamento!!


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